5 Signs You're in a Bad Relationship

Are you dating a narcissist? Master Manipulator? Emotional Terrorist? Here are some signs that you are in a bad relationship. I was told these signs a million times by people over the past years, and I pushed them back saying “he isn’t abusive things aren’t that bad, he doesn’t hit me.” If you find that you are doing this and minimizing the abuse maybe you need to take a step back and honestly evaluate your relationship. So here is a list of 4 things to watch out for and can show you that maybe it’s time to move on from this relationship.

1.  He Controls everything.

And it starts with your activities together it’s with his friends, his hobbies, and it’s all in his time; the activities you want to do never seem to work out. He isolates you from your family; you don’t see them as often as you did. Soon you start making up excuses to the people you love on why you never see them and why he never comes to you. He sabotages your friendships making you think that you choose to get rid of your friends.  Then control goes on steroids, and you start working from home, you no longer have a car, and when you leave the house, he is texting and calling wondering who you are with and how long you will be.  Soon he controls the money, and you no longer have your own, even though you work for it. Now don’t get me started with the sex because that’s going to be controlled too. It will be his choice on his time and his way. You will be left unsatisfied and unfulfilled with life and the relationship and when you complain he will make you feel like everything wrong in the relationship is your fault. Like I said before he is in control of everything, so he is going to control the blame.  This is manipulation at its finest, and it will make you think you are crazy. Take a second and stay grounded; it takes two to tango so don’t think the bad relationship is all your fault.

2.  History of past Abuse.

How does your partner talk about his ex’s? Does he refer to them as crazy? When he talks about who he dated, did it end badly with each one?  You better think twice about being with someone that talks that way. There is a common denominator, and I don’t think it’s that he only finds crazy women to date. A strong, grounded, mature person doesn’t have to label someone as something to protect their ego. A man that has integrity can date remain friendly after it’s over. Listen to the ghosts of his past, they are telling you exactly who he is, and someone like this doesn’t find crazies he creates crazies.

3.  The giving and taking are not the same.

In a bad relationship, there will always be one person that is the taker and the other the giver. That’s how you have been able to stay with him so long but also the reason that you’re feeling drained. You’re giving everything and doing everything, and he will give you enough to keep you around.

4.  The game of emotional abuse: belittling and stonewalling.

Does he tell you things that are physically wrong with your body? Does he always fail to celebrate your successes? Does he stand up for you with friends or family? Does he call you his doormat? Then when you get upset (because these are all hurtful things), he then ignores you till you apologize for getting angry? This is all in the plan because if you think you aren’t enough for him, you get so low that you get to thinking you can’t live without him. You will bend over backward doing anything he wants to keep him around. No one deserves to be a doormat, close that door immediately and open another that will lift up the doormat, dust it off and treat you like the amazing woman you are.

5.  Cycle of abuse

Another reason you stay because when it is good, it’s SO GOOD. I remember crying after my ex, and I bought a house together, and we saged it and talked about all the positive things that were going to happen in the house. Well for once we did an activity I wanted to do.  And it was fun, happy, and he was all in and paying 100% attention to me. The high of things going well never lasts. Eventually, the honeymoon stage is over, and the cycle begins again. He will belittle, Stonewall or flat out choose anything or anyone over you; you then get upset and then you’re called crazy. Meanwhile, you think it’s your fault and stay because you  THINK you can learn not to be crazy. But in reality, you aren’t crazy, and anyone that gets belittled, stonewalled and flat out chosen last would be upset. You are Normal; You will find a reasonable person to love, and you will be fulfilled and completely healthy.

So if you can relate to this list and you think your relationship is very similar, Please Go! You’re beautiful, smart, strong, and even though you have been conditioned to think otherwise and even though it will be the hardest thing you have ever done; do it. He will never change, and you will stay unfulfilled and drained. You can have a best friend as a partner, someone that’s excited to see you. I remained in an abusive relationship for almost ten years, in the end after I changed my bad habits and worked on myself and came to find it still was not working because he didn’t want it too. I tried to leave three times before I did. It was the hardest thing I ever did. Now that it’s all over and I’ve been with an amazing man I have the relationship that mirrors my parents. I am so glad I did it. It took a long time to get here, and I’m so proud to be where I am and be who I am. We are both in love with each other and will do anything to make sure each other are happy. I didn’t think this existed, and I didn’t think a relationship could be natural, and it is.

Thanks for coming to the party today, I’m sorry it feels like such a downer, but it does end well. This story has ended happily ever after for me, and I hope this post helps change someone’s nightmare into a fairytale. Life is too short, and we only regret the things we never did. You won’t regret living a more fulfilled life and leaving the draining relationship. Let me know if you liked the post or it helped you in some way by commenting and sharing.

XOXO

10 Ways You Know You're in a Good Relationship

As you all know I am a relationship know-it-all, I can look at any couple and tell you how long they will last. If you believe this statement, then you are a fool. I am no expert, but I have had my heart broken and stepped on like the doormat. But I learn from my mistakes I can tell some definite signs that you are in a good relationship and since I'm in one, I can live to tell the tell. Here they are...

1. You are physically and mentally healthier.

   I have always struggled with my weight and my analytical mind. I have come to find that this amazing, handsome specimen calms my fears and pumps me up. I am in the best shape of my life and have a healthier, mind, body and soul.

2. No more "I can't" or "I won't."

   It hit me one day that I have to get to know myself again; I am no longer living in a bubble scared to go outside. I am in a relationship that has expanded my horizons.  In the past, I thought I was too dumb to do some of  the things that I am doing now. It's an amazing feeling to have someone that runs with you instead of holding you back. When you're with someone that speaks positively about you and to you, it helps change yourself talk to be more positive. The world unlocks itself when you take I can't, or I won't get out of your vocabulary.

3. Your goals are getting achieved.

   Firstly my goals are a lot higher or harder to reach, and I achieve them. I am with someone that is a go-getter, and he helps me with my goals, and we even have goals as a couple. We have a life that we are working towards achieving and it’s a great feeling to have someone that is growing with you.

4. Life is easier.

   I use to get so frustrated with things not working out, I've come to find that my man makes me laugh at these moments. He sees me for the imperfect person I am, and I don't feel stupid or ashamed; I feel heard and understood. Life gets a lot easier when you're laughing through the mistakes and failures as well as the good times.

5. The giving and the taking feels natural and equal.

   There might be days where I don't do as much around the house, and my man does the dishes and wipes the counters. We are are not counting who did what, we are picking up where the other left off; we are a team.

6. Less fighting more laughing.

   We hardly fight, I think we can we have fought once. I'm not saying that your relationship isn't good because you fight. We have been through some pretty stressful situations, and somehow we don't fight, it's just us. When one of us is upset or says something or does something snappy we call each other out on it and the person apologizing, and we move forward. It's not about the lack of fighting but about how you move forward when you do.

7. Honesty is the best policy.

   We always tell each other the truth, the brutal truth which sometimes means like I said in number 6 that you get called out. It might sting a little, but I would rather have a partner that helps me grow and be better than someone that keeps me stagnant just to save my feelings.

8. No secrets.

   You keep one secret from your partner and the secrets turn into the book of secrets, and soon it's what's keeping you from being honest with your partner. We made a rule always to tell the truth and say it as nicely as you can. Some things should only be between you and your partner and when you have that be sacred your relationship will follow. I will not let anyone or anything come in the way of my partner and me; he is the most important being. His secrets are my secrets, and that's what has brought us closer together.

9. Hours of talking and the honeymoon stage has ended.

   My man and I miss some important moments in our lives because we are too busy talking. We missed the Eiffel Tower lit up at night because we were chatty Kathy's in the hotel room. We are always late to meet friends because caught up in some conversation. We have been dating two years soon, and we still talk like we have just met. We talk about everything under the sun, and it's weird because we are with each other 24/7 together.  It also makes talking about hard things easier; we talk to understand not to respond.

10. Never stop choosing your partner first.

    I think this is the most important thing; your relationship will never work out if you don't put your partner first. I have had to tell myself "This person is my family and no one else matters." you start choosing your hobby or friends over the person and you might as well just wave your relationship goodbye. I'm not saying you can't see your friends, but everything comes in balance.

I hope your relationship is as good as mine and I'd love to keep adding to this list so comment below on what you think makes a good relationship.

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XOXO

Online Dating - You're Doing It Wrong

Smartphones and apps have opened the floodgates of free online dating. And why not? You can meet lots of interesting people online - more than you'll meet in a loud, smoky bar. You can filter them to make sure their age, appearance, background, and interests are compatible with yours. And it's fun. Research firm GlobalWebIndex reported in 2015 that 91 million people are using apps like Tinder. Why not? Tinder has millions and millions of users. Surely the person you're looking for has an account.

NEEDLE, MEET HAYSTACK

Maybe so. But Tinder's strength - that it is so widely used - is also its weakness. You're not looking to date millions of people. You're looking to find a particular someone.

General-purpose apps and dating websites try to convince you that having lots of members is a benefit. But in most cases, such sites are a waste of time. (That's one reason their customer ratings are so low.)

Suppose you’re interested solely in guys with beards. Or maybe someone who shares your religious background. A general-purpose dating app may let you set filters so you see only members who match your criteria.

But that doesn’t mean you’ll find lots of them. Like you, people in niche categories find general-interest dating sites and apps frustrating, inefficient, and boring. So you don’t find them there.

A MATTER OF FOCUS

Luckily, savvy website operators have created specialized dating sites for people with particular interests. You can now find a website to help you connect with guys with beards, or fellow Catholics, or big beautiful women, or guys with children, or women with tattoos, or married people interested in discreet relationships, or...well, you name it!

A niche dating site is more efficient because you don't have to wade through the profiles of lots of people who don't match your interests. Better yet, such a site is a community of people who share your attraction. You'll enjoy a real sense of community at a niche site. You can pick up useful online dating tips, chat with like-minded singles, and compare experiences.

A niche site attracts precisely the people you are looking for. And because it rewards their searches with qualified potential partners, they stay active. They tell their friends. The site becomes more and more useful over time.

Best of all, you can be sure that you'll find just the kind of dating partner you're looking for.

Let other singles waste their time swiping left and swiping right on Tinder. You're better off with a niche dating website where you can meet exactly who you're looking for.

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What to Expect When... Getting Married

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First and foremost, I have a couple of exciting announcements: the Val’s Bytes podcast is coming back! After a year and a half in hibernation, it felt like the perfect time to relaunch—with a new format and a cohost. We recorded a few episodes already, and the banter is fantastic. I can’t wait to share the first one with you this week.

Now, onto the good stuff—marriage.

The other day, the Comedian and I were reflecting on what it really takes to prepare for marriage. When people buy a car or have a baby, they often spend hours doing research, weighing options, and thinking through every step. So why don’t we do the same when we’re about to commit to forever?

I lucked out. The Comedian was always intentional about building a strong foundation before we even thought about marriage or children. You can’t fix a relationship that’s already broken by simply adding more responsibility. It doesn’t work like that.

Some people think having a child or increasing physical intimacy will solve deeper issues. But it’s like addiction—your problems don’t vanish just because you’re distracted. They’re still waiting for you when the fog clears.

A good friend of mine once moved from Orlando to L.A. after a divorce, hoping a change of scenery would fix everything. But it didn’t. What helped was moving back home, where his support system could help nurse him back to life. Healing requires community, not distance.

I won’t pretend our relationship is perfect, but I will say this: we did the work. We read books, had tough conversations, and made it a point to truly understand one another. And trust me, the Comedian still has a few romantic surprises up his sleeve.

There’s a reason the court system in Florida offers a discount on your marriage license if you take a course beforehand—marriage is meant to last. And preparation matters. Take time to read books together, or go through those Pinterest-style "get to know you" questionnaires. (Yes, I’ve done those with the Comedian. They’re fun and surprisingly insightful.)

So to anyone out there dreaming of their prince charming: take the time to know him before calling him your king. Because sometimes, well… that prince could turn out to be a frog.

Here are a few great books and links to questionnaires to help you prep for your own “happily ever after”:

• The 5 Love Languages: The Secret to Love that Lasts

• Things I Wish I'd Known Before We Got Married

• 100 Random Questions to Ask Your Boyfriend

• 40 Personal Questions to Ask Your Boyfriend

• 13 Questions to Ask Before Getting Married

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5 Ways to Boost Your Confidence (Even on the Tough Days)

Being a strong woman in a world that’s constantly trying to dim your light can be exhausting. I literally just finished reading Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert—after putting it off for ages and watching the movie at least 500 times—and her story left me inspired. Especially her time in India, which helped her reclaim her confidence.

It’s easy to forget how beautiful, smart, sassy, and downright unstoppable we are. So on those days when you’re feeling just a bit “meh,” here are five ways to pick yourself up and remind the world exactly who you are.

1. Dress the Way You Want to Feel

It’s wild what clothes can do for our self-esteem. Ever looked in the mirror and said, “Damn, I look good”? You can feel like that every day.

You’ve heard it before:

“Dress for the job you want.”

Well, dress for the mood you want to. Want to feel sexy? Rock that lace thong that makes you feel like a total vixen. Need to own the day? Slip on your favorite power suit. What you wear on the outside can shift everything on the inside.

2. Drop the Negativity

Negativity is sneaky. Sometimes it comes disguised as friends, gossip, or “just venting.” And yes, it’s easy to get sucked in—hello, reality TV addiction—but it’s toxic to your confidence.

Here’s a little truth bomb: some people are in your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. If their season has ended and they’re dragging you down, it’s time to lovingly let go. Confidence starts with you, not what they think of you.

3. Talk to Yourself (In a Good Way)

Yes, I mean it—talk to yourself in the mirror. Find a mantra and say it daily. Something like:

“I am beautiful, and no one is going to dim my shine today.”

Or…

“I am a force, and today is mine to own.”

At first, it may feel silly. But self-talk is powerful. Say it until you believe it. And if you don’t believe it? Say it again. And again.

4. Move That Body

You don’t need a gym membership—just move. Dance in your kitchen, go for a walk, do a quick YouTube workout. Exercise releases endorphins, those magical chemicals that make you feel good (think baby laughter, but internal).

And beyond that, it gives you more energy, a better mood, and a serious glow-up in the confidence department.

5. Surround Yourself with Positivity

You are the company you keep. Hang with people who challenge you, uplift you, and believe in your greatness. I’ve been blessed with incredible friends who inspire me every time we’re together—smart, strong, and endlessly supportive.

Yes, it took a while to clear the toxic energy, but it was worth every bit of that journey. Find a mentor, lean into your tribe, and watch your confidence soar.

One final thought: these are tips, not a cure. If you’re experiencing depression, please seek help. As someone who’s been there, I know it’s not easy to get out of your own way. You don’t have to go it alone.

So stay sassy, stay confident, and never forget:
You are the most beautiful woman in the world.

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The Millenia Man: Can He Handle a Woman Who Has It All?

Last night, a good friend of mine sent me an article from Cosmo titled “The Only Kind of Man Worth Marrying.” It dove into the idea of the “50/50” man—a guy who genuinely supports the corporate woman and sees her success as a win for the team, not a threat.

Growing up, I struggled with the idea of “having it all.” Could I really have a career and a family and my sanity? I mean, I was raised in a slightly old-school Puerto Rican household where women were expected to handle all things domestic. I still remember my grandmother telling me I’d never find a husband if I didn’t know how to iron. (Plot twist: I still don’t iron, and I’m doing just fine, thanks.)

But this article said something that hit me: “A woman can have it all if she doesn’t have to do it all.” Blasphemy? Maybe to abuela. But to me? Pure gold.

Apparently, the modern “Millenia Man” (let’s call him MM) is all about challenging outdated gender norms. He doesn’t mind scrubbing dishes, sharing kid duty, or supporting your dream to be VP of the company—or launch your own. He’s evolved past the "bring me a plate, woman" mentality, and honestly, it’s about time.

The shift comes from how Millennials were raised. Many of our parents struggled with blurred gender roles as women started working more and men didn’t quite know what to do with that shift. But today, more men are stepping up and saying, “Let’s do this together.”

And I’m here for it.

I’ve always said I want a partnership, not a dictatorship. A relationship should be 50/50—whether it’s splitting bills or folding laundry. Turns out, my expectations weren’t unrealistic. I was just waiting for society to catch up.

That said, beware of the fake woke man. He talks a big game about being progressive, but throws a tantrum if you say you’re working late or don’t feel like cooking dinner. Watch the reactions, not just the words.

Here’s my advice:
If the person you’re with makes you a better version of yourself, keep him.
If he drains you or makes you shrink, toss him like last season’s skinny jeans.

You’re strong. You’re beautiful. You deserve someone who claps when you win and grabs a mop when the kitchen’s messy.

Lessons Learned in Love: How Heartbreak Taught Me My Worth

Over the last year, life has taken me on an emotional rollercoaster—one that forced me to reassess what I truly want out of life and love.

There were moments where I felt completely lost, even though I was once so sure of the future I envisioned. I was living in limbo—reacting to life instead of creating it. The fog is just now beginning to lift.

My last relationship—if you can even call it that—was short-lived, but intense enough to leave a lasting impact. I’ve replayed every moment, every conversation, every red flag. And the conclusion I’ve come to is this:
I should’ve walked away the first time I felt doubt, instead of waiting for all hope to disappear.

Instead, I stayed. I overcompensated. I kept trying to prove my worth to someone who was too afraid to receive it. He was still wounded from a previous relationship. And in trying to avoid his pain, he created new wounds for me.

It was another tough lesson in the idea that rebound relationships rarely work.

And while I had never laughed so much or felt so connected to someone at first, I had to ask myself—was the emotional toll worth it?

A friend of mine once said,

“As a Gemini, you tend to dive in headfirst. You want to see the good in people. You give your heart before checking if it’s safe.”

And she’s right.

But the last two experiences taught me to pause. To breathe. To see the bigger picture, not just the hopeful potential. Most importantly, they taught me this:

Knowing your self-worth is everything.

When you know your value, you stop chasing people who can’t see it. You stop trying to prove yourself to someone who should’ve known your worth from the start.

Yes, the pain will fade. But the memory of it will linger—just long enough to protect me from repeating the same mistake.

Unfortunately, heartbreak often builds walls. The next person will likely face those walls. But maybe that’s not a bad thing. Because the right person won’t run from them.

They’ll see the walls... and think you’re worth climbing over them.

Unnecessary Advice: When a Friend Crosses the Line

Last night, I went out with a couple of friends—one of whom I’ve known for quite a while. During our conversation, my current engagement came up. This friend, like my fiancé, holds more conservative views about friendships and boundaries.

The tension began when I referenced his past behavior—specifically, a few moments when he was belligerent. He didn’t appreciate that I shared those examples in front of others. As a schoolteacher, he felt those stories reflected poorly on him. He asked me to be more discreet around people he didn’t know well. I understood, apologized, and took his request seriously.

But then the conversation took a turn.

He began offering me relationship advice—advice I hadn’t asked for. He told me I shouldn’t be so open with my fiancé about my “questionable past,” referencing things I’ve written about in my blogs. He said, “What he doesn’t know won’t hurt him.”

I disagreed. Strongly.

To me, honesty builds trust. I’d rather be sincere and open now than have my partner find out something later and feel betrayed. That kind of dishonesty can wreck a relationship far more than the truth ever could.

We went back and forth for two hours.

He insisted I wasn’t listening. But I was—I just didn’t agree. I’m more liberal in my communication style. My relationship has weathered both lows and highs. We’ve grown because of our openness. So when he generalized all relationships as being “the same,” I pushed back again.

Not all relationships are the same.

Yes, we all have goals, and yes, we might face similar situations. But how we navigate them? That’s unique. Sometimes past conversations surface through direct questions. Other times, they come up organically. Maybe he read something I wrote. Maybe I asked. Maybe he did.

The point is: I didn’t ask to dissect my relationship. I didn’t ask for advice. And honestly, his feedback felt more like a lecture than a conversation.

I finally told him that certain things within my relationship are private. He doesn’t know the full picture. He has no right to advise me on something he doesn’t understand—especially when, by his own admission, he struggles to maintain relationships himself.

Yes, I can be stubborn—but I also listen. I’m not above asking questions or seeking guidance when needed. But don’t force your opinion on me and expect me to parrot it back like a student. Don’t change your stance mid-point just to win a debate.

I get it.
I just don’t agree.

If I ever need advice, I’ll ask. But I won’t ask a professional swimmer how to play football.

Have you ever received unwanted relationship advice from a friend? How did you handle it? Share your thoughts in the comments.

My Worth

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question "What kind of man are you looking for?" She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking "Do you really want to know?" Reluctantly, he said, "Yes." She began to expound... As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man...or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?" The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am not referring to money. I need something more." I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life." He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain. She said, "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple-minded man." I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked... believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. I am looking for someone who I can respect.In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a helpmate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself. When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, "You're asking a lot." She replied,"I'm worth a lot."..> Thank you Helena!

Breaking the Dating Routine: Why First Conversations Feel Rehearsed

I haven’t written in a while—mostly because nothing in this “real world” has intrigued me enough to sit down and reflect. But lately, one thing has been on my mind: dating.

Just the other day, my best friend pointed out that one of my responses to a potential match sounded... rehearsed. And honestly? She was right.

After dating for the last seven years—with just one serious relationship that lasted eight months—a routine has formed. Every time I meet someone new, we go through the same checklist:
Age. Job. Passions. Quick personal backstory.
The context may vary, but the script? Basically unchanged.

Sure, my goals have evolved. I’ve lived, I’ve learned. But somehow, the first conversations always sound the same. It's like I’m reciting a well-rehearsed monologue, not because I’m insincere, but because I've said it so many times before. And truthfully? It’s boring.

Now don’t get me wrong—I enjoy the attention. But unless someone genuinely piques my curiosity, I often find myself dodging these repetitive convos. Maybe I’m just craving something real... or different.

Lately, I’ve been wondering if I stick with the routine because of external pressure—particularly from family—to “find the right one.” But what’s the rush? Even if the process feels stale, I know I’ve got a few more “get-to-know-you” conversations left in me.

And just to be clear—meeting people and dating are not the same. I love connecting with new people, but not everyone is part of the dating equation. Some serve a business purpose. Others become friends. The dating routine? That’s strictly reserved for those exploring something more romantic.